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i had a terrible itch surrounding the vaginal area for the last 3 days and finally decided to see the OB today. i gave him a call and he asked me to go over. so, i left work at 5 pm and and rushed to the hospital. i was at the hospital at 5:30 pm and after the nurse took my weight, blood pressure and urine, i waited until 7 pm before i got to see my OB. when he saw me, he used a speculum to check for fungus that might be causing the itch. but, he said everything looks fine. but, he did give me medication and cream to ease the itch. and the OB mentioned that since i was already there, he might as well do a scan for me to see the baby’s heart beat. and we saw the heart beat! tears nearly came rolling down my face. i was just so thankful to God for a miracle!

by the time i paid the bills (RM122) and collected my medication, i was tired. i still had to go to my parents’ house to take dinner and then go home. when i arrived home, it was already 8:30 pm. i was so exhausted but thank God that the baby is coming along fine. :)

little tiny bump

i’m at my 5th week now and have been worried about the baby all the time even though the OB told me not to. because if i do, my time will pass slower… which is true. sigh! but how is it possible not to worry?

even though i’m at my 5th week, the bump is quite obvious… it’s tiny but still obvious. i have a good appetite these days and i rest a lot… approximately 10 hours a day. my manager has been very kind and understanding. i’m allowed to come into work at 10 am. so, i get up at about 8:30 am and i reach work about 9:15 am. not too bad…. i take our dinner from my parents’ place as to ease my workload. i’m glad that i don’t have many symptoms except for backache and tender breasts. but, that’s fine as long as the baby is healthy and strong. also, i wonder whether has my taste bud changed. because i cooked spicy olio yesterday which is our favourite but it didn’t taste as nice to me anymore. hmm….

hungry all the time

ever since i suspected that i was pregnant, i've been hungry most of the times. usually, i'll take my breakfast of quaker oats (with milk and egg) at 7:45 am before leaving for work and then lunch at 12 noon which will last me till dinner at about 7:30 pm. however, now, i eat my breakfast at about 9:00 am (because i buy something to bring to work to eat but i've got to change back to my habit of eating quaker oats because it's healthier and then, i'll feel hungry at 10:30 am which i will munch down something. lunch is at the usual 12 noon and then, i'll be hungry again at 3:30 pm. and i feel like i can't wait for dinner at 7:30 pm because i'm just so hungry. thank goodness i sleep earlier these days because i feel tired faster if not, i think i'll be scouring the fridge for more food!

first check-up

after work today, i went to see my OB to confirm the pregnancy. he was very nice to me by firstly beginning to remind me once again that the previous miscarriage was of nobody’s fault especially mine. then, he began to calculate my due date based on the first day of my last menses. he told me that i am 6 weeks along but i knew that i am only 4 weeks along. so, after that, he did a vaginal scan and confirmed that the pregnancy sac is obvious and that i’m really only 4 weeks along. he congratulated us and gave me duphaston (hormone pills) to take until the next check-up in 2 weeks’ time. the bill cost RM156 (RM 14 for admin charges, RM 50 for consultation, RM 20 for ultrasound and RM 56 for medication). after that, we went for our dinner and i slept at 10pm.

weight: 46.1 kg

i'm pregnant!

after consulting with my gynae, mom and my manager, i've finally decided not to wait and to make use of my last pregnancy test. and it came out to be positive! God is truly gracious!

i can finally join the maternity, pregnant and etc membership that i was robbed off last time.

please pray that God will keep my little one safe.

still waiting patiently

today is the 35th day since my last menses. i’m still waiting to take the pregnancy test. i’m quite excited yet am afraid to hope. my stomach is quite bloated and i’m experiencing tender breast. but, that’s about it. maybe, a little backache. but, still am afraid to hope….

a dizzy spell

i woke up this morning with a terrible dizzy spell. i'm much better now.... well, still waiting to see how everything goes....

a secret journey

i started this blog to avoid family and friends who check out my personal blog because i don't want them to know about my secret journey.

this journey began when i had to deal with ectopic pregnancy in july 2006 and a miscarriage in april 2007.

these days, i'm feeling pregnant yet i've been so afraid to think about it because my period due date is not up yet and i'm just so afraid that it will appear....